I Don't Know

by Kwam MC

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Strange Apparatus Paranoid, unsettled, and confused and anxious about the future; but with a lingering hope and optimism. Fits the mood of the times well.

Freak Out and Thinking Aloud are both stunning beats. Favorite track: Freak Out.
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Hope.
Despair.
Defeatism.
Hubris.

Essentially I see this as a celebration of the helplessness of the human being in solo form.

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released June 19, 2015

Big thanks to Mojzyo, Trends, Shy One and Vagrant for contributing such crisp, clean sounds towards this EP.

Thanks also to Alex at Sextillion Music for his professional work on the studio engineering side of things!

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Kwam MC London, UK

Grime lyric writer and record-onto-tracks-er. Been floating around the underground for a bit, managed to pull off the odd minor achievement here and there. Check me out on here or at grimepedia.co.uk/wiki/Kwam - alternatively Google or YouTube me. Enjoy your visit here! ... more

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Track Name: Just Another
WHY DO I TAKE THIS?
WHY ARE SO MANY FOLKS STILL RACIST?
I DUNNO WHERE I'M GOING; WILL I MAKE IT?
HOW DO I STILL FIND LIFE SO AMAZING?
IF THREE MEN MURDER TWELVE PEOPLE
DO THOSE MEN REPRESENT A NATION?
WAIT, WHY ARE THESE THINGS SO BLATANT?
I SMELL THE BULLSHIT, IT'S NOT FRAGRANT, WOW
WHY DO WE ACCEPT IT?
WHY ARE THESE PEOPLE SO UNRECEPTIVE?
ARE YOU SAFE IN THE PLACE THAT YOU REST IN?
IF YOU SAY YES GIVE THANKS FOR YOUR BLESSING
WHY DO WE TALK ABOUT FREE THOUGHT
IF WE GET MAD WHEN SOMEBODY TESTS IT?
WHY DO WE HEAR SOMEBODY TALK SENSE
AND ONLY TAKE NOTE OF THE CLOTHES THEY'RE DRESSED IN?
WELL I GUESS THAT'S THE EASY WAY.
BEST NOT TO THINK, YOU GET ME MATE
IT'S BLACK FRIDAY, GO ON, FILL UP YOUR PLATE!..
GET IT ALL RIGHT NOW, WHY WAIT?
BUT IT'S MOVING FAST, BETTER NOT BE LATE!
DON'T GET LEFT OUT, THAT'S A NASTY FATE!
FUCK THEM, I COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT FOMO*
I AIN'T GONNA GIVE ALL MY COIN TO YOUR LOGO!
ARE YOU WITH ME OR SHOULD I GO SOLO?
SOCIALLY SPEAKING, WHAT'S THE NEXT LOW BLOW?
WHAT YOU GOT FOR US NEXT THERE BO-JO*?
WILL I EVER BE OUT OF THIS DOJO?
I WANT A PLACE WHERE THE AIR'S WARM AND NICE
HOPES AREN'T HIGH BUT OF COURSE I MIGHT
I FEEL LIKE SCHOOL NEVER TAUGHT ME RIGHT
I LEARNT LOTS THERE BUT IT NEVER TAUGHT ME LIFE

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JUST ANOTHER BIT OF RANDOM MUSIC
JUST ANOTHER LOT OF RANDOM MUSINGS
I KEEP ASKING MYSELF WHY I DO THIS
I STILL FIND IT FAINTLY AMUSING
I WALK SO TALL BUT I STAY LOSING
I'M TOP DRAW BUT I'VE STILL GOTTA PROVE IT
I'M NOT TICKED OFF, SAME WAY I'M NOT MOVING
GUESS THE TIME'S RIGHT - BETTER STOP CRUISING
JUST ANOTHER MAN WHO THINKS HE'S SOMEONE
JUST ANOTHER ONE CHASING A LUMP SUM
NO CHANCE, IT'S ABOUT SO MUCH MORE
I'M USED TO IT NOW, FROM DAY I BEEN POOR..
...BUT WHAT'S MONEY, DOUGH?
SEE, MY MIND'S WORTH MORE THAN ITS WEIGHT IN GOLD!..
YEAH, WHAT'S MONEY, DOUGH?
SEE, MY MIND'S WORTH MORE THAN ITS WEIGHT IN GOLD

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CAN'T TAKE MAN APART
I WANNA RULE THE WORLD LIKE JOHN PART
WON'T GET A BETTER MC IN THESE PARTS
CAN'T TRY TELL THEM I GOT NO HEART
OI WHAT ARE YOU CARK*? YOU LITTLE TART
YOU'RE TRYING TO BE TOO CLEVER BY HALF
I'M KICKING UP A STINK LIKE A RED MEAT FART
MAN'S STILL HERE, GONE TOO FAR
IT'S NOT A JOKE OUT HERE, NOT A LARK
BLACK MEN ARE GETTING CHOPPED DOWN LIKE BARK
I WANT THE BEST FOR MYSELF AND MY DARGS*
AIN'T GOT A CLUE WHY I STILL WRITE BARS
MAYBE I THINK IT'LL BUY ME A YARD
MAYBE I THINK I'M MAKING A MARK
HOW MISGUIDED AM I? WHAT A PAR
TOTALLY GASSED TILL THE END WE ARE
WHEN I SAY WE, I MEAN THE DREAMERS
WE'RE STILL DOING OUR BIT TO ACHIEVE
WE'RE STILL DOING OUR BEST TO BELIEVE
NO MATTER HOW BAD IT EVER GETS OR SEEMS SO
WHEN IT ALL STARTS COMING LOOSE AT THE SEAMS
ATTACH THE NEEDLE, START THE MACHINE
PLEASE DON'T TELL ME I CAN'T HAVE DREAMS
I'M GONNA DO MY TING TILL I LEAVE
I'M GONNA DO MY TING TILL I GO!
DO MY TING TO THE DEATH, RIGHT TO THE VERY LAST BREATH
TILL I GOT NO PUFF LEFT
NOT TILL THEN SHOULD YOU LET ME REST
HOLD TIGHT EVERYONE, BIG UP YOUR CHEST
REMEMBER I TOLD YOU - WE ARE THE BEST!
YOU DESERVE THE BEST, SO DON'T TAKE LESS
NO ENEMY OF PROGRESS SHALL TRANSGRESS

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*FOMO = fear of missing out, as our anagram-loving American friends would be quick to tell us

*BO-JO = Boris Johnson, Mayor of London at the time of recording

*CARK = drunk

*DARGS = friends
Track Name: Freak Out
GOT FLOWS TO MAKE THE PEOPLE DANCE
LIVE ON THE SET WITH A REGAL STANCE!
BUT IT'S FUTILE, IT'S ALL A FEEBLE FARCE
YOU THINK THE FUTURE'S BRIGHT; THE SEQUEL'S DARK!..
WE NEVER KEPT EVIL FAR!
NOW WE SEE IT EVERYWHERE THAT WE ARE
NEAR THE BRINK, IT'S CLEAR THAT WE ARE
THE MEN IN CHARGE DON'T CARE WHO YOU ARE!
THEY'RE ON THE TV DRESSED IN THEIR GARB
MORE TIME THESE MAN ARE KILLERS AT LARGE
WE'RE NOT SAFE, WE'RE ALL COLLATERAL DARG
LIKE SAY YOU CAN'T GET SHOT BY A NARC*
ASK AZELLE, GO ASK SMILEY AS WELL!
I WONDER IF THOSE NAMES RING A BELL
WHO'S NEXT UP? ONLY TIME'S GONNA TELL
I JUST HOPE I'M NOT THE NEXT TO BE FELLED!

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GIRLS ON THE RIGHT FREAK OUT! BOYS ON THE RIGHT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!
GIRLS ON THE LEFT FREAK OUT! BOYS ON THE LEFT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!
LADIES TO MY RIGHT FREAK OUT! GENTS TO MY RIGHT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!
LADIES TO MY LEFT FREAK OUT! GENTS TO MY LEFT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT WHAT
GIRLS ON THE RIGHT FREAK OUT! BOYS ON THE RIGHT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!
GIRLS ON THE LEFT FREAK OUT! BOYS ON THE LEFT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!
LADIES TO MY RIGHT FREAK OUT! GENTS TO MY RIGHT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!
LADIES TO MY LEFT FREAK OUT! GENTS TO MY LEFT FREAK OUT!
EVERYBODY FREAK OUT!

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...EVERYBODY FREAK OUT JUST GO NUTS
WHETHER YOU ARE CHILDREN OR GROWN UPS
ARE YOU NOT AWARE THAT WE'RE SO FUCKED?
THERE IS NO AVOIDING WE'RE GONNA DIE
THE MEDIA SAID SO AND THEY NEVER LIE
SO I'M GIVING UP NOW, IT'S LIKE WHY TRY?
FUCK BEING SHOOK, MAN'S GONNA LIVE LIFE
I'M GONNA LIVE RIGHT, NEVER GONNA THINK TWICE
FUCK POLITICS, I'M GONNA DO PEACE
I'M GONNA DO ME, LIGHTING A DOOBIE
WHAT'S THE SOLUTION? AIN'T GOT A SCOOBY*
I'M JUST ONE OF THESE BRERS FROM THE PAST
WHO AIN'T GOT THE ANSWER, OH WELL SUE ME
I WON'T LET THE PRESS TURN ME LOOPY
IF YOU TRUST THEM YOU MUST BELIEVE YOUR LIFE'S A MOVIE
AND THESE ARE SCARY TIMES!

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...DARK DAYS ARE AHEAD
WILL YOU COME OUT YOUR YARD OR HIDE IN YOUR BED?
I'M NOT AFRAID I WILL SHOW MY HEAD
I'M NOT A WASTE MAN I KNOW MY LEVS
TOWARDS THE SKY'S HOW I HOLD MY NECK
WALKING PROUD WITH THE REST OF THE PLEBS
WE SHALL OVERCOME! NO MORE OR LESS
THERE WILL BE BLOODSHED, PAIN AND STRESS!
...BUT AS LONG AS OUR KIDS LIVE BETTER THAT'S BLESS
IT'LL BE GOOD TO CLEAR THIS MESS!
LET'S HELP TO EASE THEIR DURESS
I WILL LAUGH IN YOUR FACE WHEN YOU CLAIM I JEST
THIS AIN'T A JOKE, IT'S HAPPENING NOW!
AND THAT'S THE POINT I'M HAMMERING DOWN!
DON'T BELIEVE ME NOW, BUT I WON'T HOLD THAT AGAINST YOU
WHEN YOU START CLAMOURING ROUND!


*NARC = http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=narc there you go

*SCOOBY = Cockney slang for clue (Scooby Doo)
Track Name: Thinking Aloud
LOOK I DON'T WANT MUCH
IF I'M BEING HONEST I ALREADY HAD A TOUCH IN LIFE
MY PARENTS ARE STILL HUSBAND AND WIFE
I'VE ALREADY DONE SO MUCH IN MY TIME
MUM SAYS THAT'S NOT ENOUGH I GOTTA SHINE
MUMMA TAKE TIME, I'M STILL REACHING MY PRIME
I DON'T WANNA GET TOO DEEP WITH THE RHYMES
LEMME KEEP STILL ON THE SEAT OF THIS BIKE!..
'COZ I DON'T WANNA GET BUM SORES
I CAN'T CONTROL WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IT'LL RUN COURSE
TOLD MAN YOU CAN'T FULLY TRUST IN A PLAN
ALL YOU CAN DO IS DO ALL THAT YOU CAN
...SO I'M STOOD HERE THINKING ALOUD
'COZ I GET DAYS WHEN I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM
START TO BEAT MYSELF UP THEN I REMIND MYSELF IT'S NORMAL
AND I'M ONLY A MAN

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STOOD HERE THINKING ALOUD
WHAT AM I HERE TO DO, WHAT'S THIS ABOUT?
DO I WANNA GET MONEY, IF SO WHAT AMOUNT?
DO I WANT SO MUCH THAT I CAN'T COUNT?
HERE TRYING TO WORK OUT JUST WHAT I NEED
I THINK TRUTH BE TOLD I JUST WANNA BE
NOT SURE WHAT I WANT OR WHAT I NEED...
TRUTH BE TOLD I'VE JUST GOTTA BE

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WOMEN IN MY LIFE DON'T GET THIS
THEY THINK I DON'T CARE 'COZ I DON'T SWEAT SHIT..
LIKE SAY I CAN'T SEE WHERE WRETCH IS
I DO MY TING, THEY DON'T HAVE TO RESPECT IT
WHAT'S MORE, THEY DON'T HAVE TO BELIEVE ME
I TRUST MYSELF, I AIN'T GONNA GET WEEPY
YOU DON'T TRUST ME IT'S ALL GOOD, LEAVE ME.
I'M A WORK HARD TILL I GET SLEEPY.
GOING SO HARD WHEN THEY CAN'T SEE ME
MIGHT BE THE REASON THEY RECKON I'M DREAMY
THIS AIN'T A GAME AND I AIN'T NO GENIE
I CAN ONLY DO MY BEST IN THE PRESENT..
TREAT THE FUTURE LIKE IT'S A PRESENT..
TRUE I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I'M GETTING
BEST CASE I CAN HAVE A FAINT IDEA
I CAN ONLY TRY TO MAKE MINE HERE

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IF NOT BEING SURE IS A CRIME I'M GUILTY
I'M AN ANIMAL, I'M FILTHY
BUT I DON'T THINK THAT IT'S ALL THAT DEEP
DON'T SEE WHY YOU WANNA CALL THAT WEAK
I'M JUST BEING HONEST, SO FALL BACK PLEASE
NEVER DID SAY I DON'T WANNA MAKE Ps*
MAN KNOW I DON'T WANNA DROP BACK TO MY KNEES
I JUST DON'T WANNA BE PART OF ANY SLEAZE..
IF NOT BEING SURE IS A CRIME THEN JAIL ME
CHUCK AWAY THE KEY, DON'T BAIL ME
NO SWEAT, DON'T CHECK FOR ME, DON'T MAIL ME
YOU'RE BEST TO STEER CLEAR FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY!
SOUNDS MAD BUT IT'S HOW I FEEL LATELY
BEING UNSURE'S NOTHING LIKE BEING LAZY
SAYING THAT MAYBE IT IS AND I'M WRONG
SAME WAY AGAIN IF IT ISN'T I'M NOT


*Ps = money
Track Name: Let It Sink In
...LET IT SINK IN...
THROUGH TO YOUR SKIN...
INTO YOUR PORES..
THAT'S IT, RELAX AND PAUSE...
FRET NO MORE...
DO NO CHORES...
THIS TIME'S YOURS..
SO LET IT SINK IN

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FEEL STRESSED? YOU'RE NOT ALONE
LET IT ALL OUT, HAVE A GOOD MOAN
YOU DON'T WANT ALL THAT IN YOUR DOME*
TAKE TWO MINUTES, LET IT ALL GO
IT'S QUITE NORMAL TO GET A BIT LOW
BUT DON'T STAY DOWN THERE, IT'S NOT A GOOD ZONE
YOU GOT ANNOYED BY A BERK* AT WORK?..
DON'T STILL BE ANNOYED AT HOME
FEEL STRESSED? TIME FOR A BREAK
DON'T SWEAT HOW MUCH TIME IT'LL TAKE!...
SHOW LOVE TO YOUR BRAIN
TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOUR MENTAL STATE...
DEFEAT THAT HATE...
RELEASE THAT HATE...
DELETE THAT STRAIGHT...
YOU DON'T NEED THAT WAVE...

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IS YOUR HEAD STILL POUNDING?..
DO YOU FEEL YOU'RE DROWNING?..
THE BAD VIBES ARE CROWDING
DON'T WORRY THOUGH, JUST START SHOUTING
NOW, IS YOUR HEAD STILL HURTING?
DO YOU FEEL THAT WORKING?
NOW I CAN'T BE CERTAIN,
BUT I THINK IT'S WORTH IT
WELL WORTH LETTING YOUR EMOTIONS FLOW
WELL WORTH LETTING YOUR FRUSTRATION GO...
IT'S NOT EASY I KNOW...
PLEASE JUST GO WITH THE FLOW...
RIDE WITH THE HIGHS AND THE LOWS
YOU WERE DOWN ON THE GROUND THEN YOU ROSE
NOW YOU FEEL BETTER FROM YOUR HEAD TO YOUR TOES
AND THAT THERE'S HOW A GOOD VIBE GROWS

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...WE ARE THE BEST...
SAY THAT AGAIN, WE'RE THE BEST...
WE CAN HANDLE THE STRESS...
WE CAN PASS ANY TEST...
WE ARE THE GREATEST..
SAY THAT AGAIN, WE'RE THE GREATEST
WE'RE ALIVE, SO WE'RE AMAZING
WE ALL DESERVE SOME ENORMOUS RATINGS!
PUSH OUT YOUR CHEST AND BREATHE
RELEASE YOUR ANGER, IT'S NOT THAT DEEP...
PUSH OUT YOUR CHEST AND CALM
RELEASE YOUR ANGER, IT'S DOING YOU HARM...
SEND IT AWAY..
GET READY FOR A BRAND NEW DAY...
PUT THIS ONE AWAY...
GO AGAIN WHEN YOU SEE THOSE RAYS...


*DOME = head

*BERK = idiot